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i hear the music.......
i shiver in the cold......
but i still cant feel it........
- Mood:
pissed off
its freakin 230 am and I am wide awake...
my head is like a vortex of random thoughts...
well, not really random, they’re mostly of you...
what else is new right? :p
these thoughts have been on my mind all day... driving me insane...
I don’t know what I want to do.. do I keep it in? do I talk to someone about it?
every time I pick up my phone to call/text someone, I put it back down right away because I don’t know what to say...
do I sound crazy?
even this entry seems pointless...
what the fuck is going on with me???
the past couple of weeks with you have been great... don’t get me wrong...
like my ate said.. have you finally come to your senses? :/
my heart's racing... closing my eyes and taking a deep breath every freakin minute...
ahh fuck....
you know how i feel about you right Mari?
I have told you... and it still hasn’t changed.. not one bit...
you’re all I want, you’re all I need, you’re all I care about...
every time were together and we talk, we laugh, we look into each others eyes.. it just strengthens these feelings I have...
Alright I’m going to go all cheesy here…
Just a couple of hours talking to you, being with you makes my day…
Even if it gets me in trouble I wouldn’t care…
I’d do anything for you Mari…
I think I have proven that…
When I got to know you I have fallen in love with you…
People ask me if I really feel that way towards you… and I answer them with a resounding yes…
I know people think I’m stupid and crazy… and you know what, I don’t care…
Just give me a chance… please…
- Mood:
thoughtful
bowled 3 200 games... 215, 232 and 215.....
wuhooo!!!!!
that I bought you roses
to tell you that i like you
I'm sorry
That I was raised with respect
not to sleep with you when you were drunk
I'm sorry
That my body's not ripped enough
to "satisfy" your wants
I'm sorry
that I open your car door,
and pull out your chair like I was raised
I'm sorry
That I'm not cute enough
to be "your guy"
I'm sorry
That I am actually nice;
not a jerk
I'm sorry
I don't have a huge bank account
to buy you expensive things
I'm sorry
I like to spend quality nights at home
cuddling with you, instead of at a club
I'm sorry
I would rather make love to you then just screw you
like some random guy.
I'm sorry
That I am always the one you need to talk to,
but never good enough to date
I'm sorry
That I always held your hair back when you threw up,and didn't get mad at you for puking in my car,
but when we went out you went home with another guy
I'm sorry
That I am there to pick you up at 4am when your new man hit you and dropped you off in the middle of nowhere,
but not good enough to listen to me when I need a friend
I'm sorry
If I start not being there because it hurts being used as a door mat, only to be thrown to the side when the new jerk comes around
I'm sorry
If I don't answer my phone anymore when you call, to listen to you cry for hours, instead of getting a couple hours of sleep before work
I'm sorry
that you can't realize.. I've been the one all along.
I'm sorry
If you read this and know somebody like this
but don't care
But most of all
I'm sorry
For not being sorry anymore
I'm sorry
That you can't accept me for who I am
I'm sorry
I can never do anything right, and nothing that I do is good
enough to make it in your world.
I'm sorry
I caught your boyfriend with another girl and told you about it, I thought that was what friends were for...
I'm sorry
That I told you I loved you and actually meant it.
I'm sorry
That I talked to you for nine hours on Thanksgiving when your boyfriend was threatening you instead of spending time with my family.
I'm Sorry
That I cared
I'm sorry
that I listen to you at night talking about how you wish you could have done something different.
- Mood:
cold
me and pedro found a way to meet girls using bowling.....
and this "way" works.....
hahhahaha....
stay..........
strongggggg.............................
couple more practices and im gonna reach my goal... breaking 200.....
got a new bowling ball....
first game i played with it.... 191....
wuhooo!!!!
for those of you who dont get it...
a 191 with a new ball is pretty good...... in fact it's amazing...
haha....
but one of the plugs came out.... :(
now i have to get it fixed......
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my ate's mad at me....... :(((
- Mood:
as usual
